My biggest fear is...going back to that place...

In the last 4 years I've lived a life I never imagined I would, I've met some of the most amazing people and fallen in love with each and every one of them and their passion for a beautiful life. I found a person inside me that I never knew existed but always wanted to be. 

I've also hit rock bottom, reached a place of darkness beyond anything I have ever experienced before. Felt more alone and scared than I ever had before. Was tempted with the thought of giving up, anything to just not feel that kind of pain. As I take on the stay at home mom role once again... This time doing it mostly alone....feeling restricted and confined with a new born at home...my biggest fear is returning to that place of darkness again....